practice?

Now i normally love birthdays and everything about them, but tonight i was thinking about how I am turning 20. I initially thought this wouldn't be much different than 19- you are only that much closer to being 21. This would be fine with me, if I hadn't thought of one major difference earlier tonight... people start getting married in their twenties. This means (for me anyway) if you are seriously dating someone in your 20s and your not good with marrying them then you should break it off and start dating someone else. Dating is more for the purpose of marriage and not just for practice. This would also be alright IF i felt that i have already had any practice with boyfriends at all.
Now that was the pessimistic side of me speaking, the part of me that pops up and sometimes makes me think I am never going to get married (which is possibly one of my biggest fears). The more optimistic side of me wants to take my moms advice which is every interaction with boys is practice even if you are not seriously dating. This is the same part of me that wants to believe in fairy tales and that some day the perfect guy for me is going to show up and we are going to live happily ever after.
my mom is often right when she gives me advice so that gives me abit more hope.
i do realize this post sounds slightly pathetic.. but my bridal party knows me better than that<3

Speaking of my bridal party, I've had it picked out since about 7th grade, and i cannot wait to be reunited. I am insanely jealous you are all off the week before me. luckily i still get to see youu =)