practice?

Now i normally love birthdays and everything about them, but tonight i was thinking about how I am turning 20. I initially thought this wouldn't be much different than 19- you are only that much closer to being 21. This would be fine with me, if I hadn't thought of one major difference earlier tonight... people start getting married in their twenties. This means (for me anyway) if you are seriously dating someone in your 20s and your not good with marrying them then you should break it off and start dating someone else. Dating is more for the purpose of marriage and not just for practice. This would also be alright IF i felt that i have already had any practice with boyfriends at all.
Now that was the pessimistic side of me speaking, the part of me that pops up and sometimes makes me think I am never going to get married (which is possibly one of my biggest fears). The more optimistic side of me wants to take my moms advice which is every interaction with boys is practice even if you are not seriously dating. This is the same part of me that wants to believe in fairy tales and that some day the perfect guy for me is going to show up and we are going to live happily ever after.
my mom is often right when she gives me advice so that gives me abit more hope.
i do realize this post sounds slightly pathetic.. but my bridal party knows me better than that<3

Speaking of my bridal party, I've had it picked out since about 7th grade, and i cannot wait to be reunited. I am insanely jealous you are all off the week before me. luckily i still get to see youu =)

first post.

so here goes.

megan you have inspired me. i love reading your blogs and finding out the little tiny details of you life and insight on life. so i thought maybe the 3 1/2 people reading this would enjoy this.

so this week i have been really crazy.
i went out tuesday and thursday...i've decided thats too much for me to handle
i went to one class this morning and had to go back to my room to sleep&eat during the other two.. ok so not the smartest idea, but i had a really good time. my main story from the night is..
...so theres this boy that by the end of college i am going to makeout with.. it just has to happen for me to graduate ...and i saw him at the bar last night and i was just drunk enough to go up to him and introduce my self (even though we have already met a few times) he was very nice and didnt seem put off --even said it was really nice meeting me as i was leaving the bar.. but then this morning walking to my 830 class looking like a hot mess we saw eachother and it was a bit akward.

my new favorite drink to order at the bar is a shirly temple with vodka.
you should really try it.

so i was watching the bachelor this morning and i couldnt decide if i would rather (if i was that desperate) go on the bachelor as one of those sad girls who has to compete for love with other girls and do it publically or write an add for myself on craigslist. i am still not sure.

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